Right now it feels like I have nothing more to hope for and to hold on to.

People used to ask me why I keep holding on to the past and the truth is, as long as there was something for me to hold on to, it means that hope hasn't died out yet. It means that I still believe that one day, things might actually fall into place and that day is somewhere in the future, maybe even the near future.

But now that I've finally given up, the future suddenly seems so uncertain. I don't even know what will make me happy anymore and if I don't know that, I don't know how to get there. And it's just such a scary thought...

I'm really just so sick and tired of everything.

Take me away.